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May, 2008:

ipod, iphone, iwant…

Okay so I got a new cell phone, the Sony Ericsson w580i, which is pink, and cute, and works great. This post is not about getting a new phone, not really.
My 5th gen iPod Video (60GB) will be two years old this summer, and while it still functions, I’m enticed by this whole flash memory thing and occasionally take a look at the iPod touch. I’m keeping track of the memory upgrades, although 32 isn’t quite enough for to flip over yet, upon further inspection, even 64 wouldn’t be enough – there are some major things missing as Apple decided that it wanted to make the touch just a partially disabled iPhone. The one thing that really gets me is the inability to edit calendar events on the device. This completely ruins it as a pda for me – the whole point of having a calendar is the ability to edit it on the fly! So I turn to the device Apple really wants to push – the iPhone. If I got one, it would be more an iPod replacement than a phone replacement. I need the app capabilities, and I need the storage for music. Wifi, 3G? it’s all just extras. I doubt the iPhone’s going to suddenly jump to 64GBs of space this summer (when supposedly the 3G version will be announced) but if it steps its game up to 32 I’m going to be sorely tempted. But the 64GB would be a done deal, no questions asked. Well, at that point anyway, I assume. I’m doing extensive research on the device right now so my questions should be little to none XD The only way I’d change my position is if Apple changes its position on allowing the iPod touch to be the digi.tech it has the potential to be.
But the 64 jump won’t come until at least Christmas, if not much later in 2009, I would think. Unless flash memory develops and drops price much faster than everyone is anticipating, anyway…

the conclusion to the history of my fashion

Well I kind of got side-tracked and never finished that entry.
Essentially, what I wanted to say was, even though I was into Lolita before Himegyaru, I didn’t come from Lolita into Hime. I found about it unrelated to Lolita, through magazines of gyaru fashion, and later LJ communities about the same. I can see why people would like both, and I understand that there are some (many?) Western gyaru who have had a bad taste left in their mouths from girls who hopped over from Lolita fashion (how this happened so suddenly I have no idea – the bases for the fashions are completely separate) which is probably why I want to stick a huge sign on my forehead that says “I didn’t come from Lolita!” XD even though I can’t deny my interest in the fashion at one point in time (it’s waned, considerably). I don’t think I’d sell my Lolita clothes since, well, I mean I wore them. A lot. And they’ve been washed, several times. The only piece I’ve got that’s only been worn a couple times is my beloved VM dress which I ain’t givin up to nobody. ( > >)
The VW rocking horse shoes should proooooobably go but I can’t bear to do it! Sure they’re worth a JD dress but they’re cool! and interesting! and are crazy fun to walk in XD So I can’t do it. Just like I can’t sell any more of my dolls, even though I don’t spend much time with them anymore.
Anyway, if I can find a nice balance of high-but-not-too-high hair, then Hime can be my final fashion. It’s cute, it’s elegant, it’s not necessarily so garish that people stop and stare although it can be if you like XD It has roses, ribbons and pearls! All things I love as motifs. I can’t be five forever, so I may as well be cute in a “grown up” way XD I’ll have to find a couple really good pair of heels too… I have a lot of cheap 4″ pumps that I just cannot wear all day XD It’s okay to cough up ~$100 for a pair of shoes if they’re well constructed and you can wear them all the time, right? That has to be the aim – good quality, well-fitted pieces, even if it reduces the variety, it should make me feel better about my fashion – it sucks having things that don’t fit quite right, and that’s never a confidence booster on a bad day (-_-;)
But! I can fit into a good chunk of LL/Tralala clothing so I’ll continue to patronize that~ ♪ 姫ギャル has finally trumped Lolita for me, once and for all. I need to reorganize my closet… XD

falling into a style

This post is going to be, essentially, my fashion history and why I think 姫ギャル will probably end up becoming my final fashion incarnation.

Stage one: I am born.
At this point, clearly I am not dressing myself nor am I making fashion choices. Without going back through a photo album I can’t really tell you what I wore up until Kindergarten although I will say there was a fair amount of purple and pink and turquoise (these are colors I remember specifically) and corduroy overalls. Yeah, dressing your baby daughter up in frilly things is cute, but if she’s just going to make them disgusting a few hours later, what’s the point? My mother was practical and dressed me for action

Stage two: I am taught.
Elementary school was a whole lot of playing with boys. Not sports, because I didn’t really like them, but Tag and Capture the Flag were my favorite games. It’s not as though I didn’t play with Barbies, because I did, I just pretty much played on my own. (Well, or with my brother when he insisted, but the results were mainly the dolls getting thrown across the room.) I remember having a lot of fun styling their hair, and changing outfits every few minutes. I did fashion some poorly thought out clothing for them, held together with safety pins and the like. As far as I know I was pretty much exclusively in jeans and either a T-shirt or turtleneck – things that, if they got dirty would easily be washed. I’m sure I owned some girly clothes for church because I’m pretty sure I was, uh, “encouraged” to dress up for Sundays but those clothes never entered my everyday life, really.

Stage three: I am a girl… I think.
Middle school was… well kind of weird. When you spend your entire life acting like a boy it’s hard to get boys to realize that you are not a boy once you want them to. At the beginning of 6th grade, I befriended a girl who essentially introduced me to the concept of makeup. I didn’t exactly ask for help, although in retrospect I probably should’ve, because that’s not really how I operated. But the group of girls I’d somehow become friends with attempted a makeover session with makeup and essentially it was just weird. I forgot to mention that in elementary school there was an incident similar to this, but took place at school, where all the girls in my 4th grade class decided to give me a makeover – a la Jessica Rabbit. (They even brought hairspray to school!) The result was, I couldn’t really see very well and wasn’t exactly encouraged to do this again. Anyway, I went to my mother and said “I need makeup!” so we hit up the drugstore. Not the best quality, but when your mother doesn’t use make up often herself… Cover Girl foundation in a compact, pale frosty pink lipstick and.. some kind of eyeshadow, I can’t remember the color. Probably blue or green. The foundation covered my skin all right, even though I wasn’t in particular need of it, but it had a distinct orange tint when combined with my skin which I didn’t notice until way later than I should have. I sort of gave up on foundation for a while, since it failed to produce light enough shades to blend with my face, although I did occasionally use stick concealer.. poorly.
7th grade was the year of the field trips, and at least one of those required us to dress up. I wore a skirt to school, during school hours, for the first time since those elementary grade in-school productions. (And the 5th grade play, which actually, I think is the skirt I ended up wearing on that field trip…) It was… weird. 7th grade was also the year of dances. So I’m pretty sure I dressed up for those, at least, I remember dressing up for the semi-formal we had, although maybe that was 8th grade… anyway, at this point, I was hitting the mall pretty regularly with my group of friends, looking for clothes, accessories and the like. I was also visiting the local CVS and Walgreen’s for Jane brand makeup which was cheap and fun – the eyeshadows were very pigmented… actually too pigmented for the way I used them. I couldn’t really find a good balance – I loved the colors but it looked so weird on me. Also tried eyeliner, which didn’t really work out either. As I entered my gothy phase, I worked on the makeup, and even purchased blue lipstick which slid off my lips every couple of hours. It was nothing good of course, but I was being creative and dressing up… in my own way.
Stage four: I’m definitely a girl… although I’m not sure how to express it.
High school was change at a rapid rapid pace. The gothy stage remained through part of 9th grade, although it was temporarily transformed back into “let’s be androgynous with baggy clothes” since my boyfriend didn’t want me wearing “revealing” clothing… well, not to school anyway. The safety pins were ever present along with black, black, a little blue and some jeans. It wasn’t so much that I intentionally bought so much black clothing… I just didn’t know how to match things together and since I already had black…. black matches, right? I was not a fashionable goth, by any means. In fact, I’m sure the real goths were making fun of me, although I never really considered myself that completely, it’s the only word I can use to describe my fashion at the time… other than “lazy.”
The spring/summer of 10th grade was the beginning of “I am a girl and I shall wear skirts because it is hot out!” mostly because I was horrified of my thighs and no longer wanted to wear shorts. Purple re-entered my wardrobe because, for some reason, I was in denial about liking pink. Not a lot of color variety, mostly purple purple purple in varying shades. I tried out purple makeup, for a match. Eh. At this point I was attempting to look more like a normal girl, but I couldn’t quite slide into it. 11th and 12th grade marked the beginning of my serious study of the Japanese language (and the end of my study of the French language…) and my introduction to… Lolita.

Stage five: I am five again!
On some level, I’m sure Lolita is me revisiting the girly childhood I didn’t actually have in public. My first attempts at the fashion were very gothy, because that was my only connecting point. I got the general gist of it, but it uh… had a long way to go. I bought from ebay (the scandal!) and attempted to fashion some pretty outfits out of black… and more black. And a little white, from time to time. Fanplusfriend was my friend all right. I admired the outfits in the Bibles, as well as the crazy, colorful creations of Jrock singer Kana. I can’t lie, I liked how she matched her hair color to her outfits. I did research, I lurked in communities, I knew what had to be done but the follow through was not something I was too good at. Then, Meta allowed overseas orders, with Paypal! I had brand items! Well, accessories at the beginning, but still! My wardrobe was kind of a mess at this point, and I’m not sure exactly what I was going for at the time… since I’m pretty sure I didn’t know then, either. Gothic Lolita turned into Classical Lolita and somehow Punk Lolita became my near-final destination. Putumayo was the cause, mostly. I finally made it to the Western Lolita’s paradise: Harajuku. I stepped foot in Putumayo’s store and was just floored. I loved everything. And somehow, through Putumayo, my main colors changed to pink and white. (Which are not Putumayo’s main colors, incidentally, they just use that combination from time to time.) I think what drew me into Putumayo is the clothing’s ability to look normal enough for everyday wear, for the most part. Sweet Lolita was too crazy, Gothic Lolita was too much black and Classical Lolita didn’t fit me… So I bought a lot of Putumayo. I filled up a point card, later, when I was in Japan for four months. That should give you an idea of just how much clothing I have from that store. Anyway, it was Lolita Lolita Lolita up through the beginning of my study abroad time in Chibaken….

Stage six: おしゃれになりたい! | I want to become fashionable!
Living in Japan will really change your perception of yourself and of your fashion. Luckily by this point I’d concocted a daily make regimen that covered up the occasional flaw and made me look sort of pretty, and my ability to do nice hair had increased considerably. No unwashed face/ratty hair combination for me! But my fashion was still floundering. It was undeniable at this point: I wanted to be cute. jam*pixy was a godsend. If you don’t know about them, envision a Japanese Rave, or D.E.B. – cheap, trendy clothing in a small, packed store. It was on the main street I walked every day to and from the train station I used to get to school. It wasn’t open in the morning, obviously, so I only hit it up on my way back, but I basically popped in every day. The shopgirls were well aware of this, since being a gaijin in a sort of suburban area in Japan makes you stand out just a little, and eventually thanked me for my continuous patronage XD If only I’d spent more time in stores like that and less time in brand stores like Putumayo… but had it not been for Lolita fashion, I would’ve never discovered Liz Lisa.
In the US, I was sort of reading fashion magazines (mostly Glamour and Lucky were the only ones that didn’t make me cringe) but they didn’t completely appeal to me. I’m not sure what spurred my interest in PINKY and Non-no – maybe it was the covers, maybe it was the names. I feel like I didn’t start picking up copies until I seriously considered getting my hair cut in April. But once I did… I kept coming back. PINKY became an absolute favorite. I loved the models, the outfits, the accessories – the whole package they were promoting, mostly the cute (rather than cool) style. And I was influenced by it, even though my entire wardrobe didn’t transform immediately. Before this, as I said, spending time on Takeshita Doori in Harajuku introduced me to the brand Liz Lisa. Knowing nothing about what style they might be representing, I was drawn in immediately. And I kept coming back. Since the clothes were moderately expensive I couldn’t afford hundreds of pieces (although as I’ve said above, if I’d kicked the Lolita habit I would’ve had a lot more to blow on it), but I did buy some tops, and a skirt, and pretty much every 福袋 they put out. Japan is a country full of underlying pressure to fit in. And I felt that pressure. Lolita was not fitting in (despite the positive attention I got from it, it really wasn’t the norm, and you can’t really argue otherwise).
It was at this point, that I subconsciously was drifting towards gyaru fashion. I only visited Shibuya briefly, and never even entered the 109 building (it was a fashion unrelated trip) but I was being drawn into it – these were cute, fashionable clothes that I could wear every day. I loved the hairstyles in the magazines and got my hair cut based on one of the suggestions. The heels part was a little difficult to incorporate at the time since I didn’t bring many with me and Japan doesn’t exactly cater to size 9 and above but I did buy some cute white sandals with a small heel.

(unfinished, I’m starving! I’ll write more after I eat XD)

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